growing up in a neglectful environment makes you really fuckin good at acting like the person who is being neglected isn’t actually you. you build all these walls up to keep the real you safe, but you almost don’t even wanna be yourself in the first place cuz of the trauma.

as i grow older this is the only thing i struggle to outgrow. the fact that i dont have to be someone else to be loved is hard to learn. i always thought love could be earned like a job or a pension, instead of coming naturally, like a real friendship, relationship or family.

i really tried to be everything other than myself to be accepted and i regret not being the real me when it mattered. just be yourself kids, be the real you and not what you think others perceive you should be